Archive for November, 2004

The Dream's the Thing…

It’s been awhile. I’ve been busy. Let’s leave it at that.

I had a dream last night that I agreed to be in a play. I took on the role because no one else wanted it. I was one of the main characters in the play, but I didn’t realize that until the night of the first performance. Someone pointed out how many lines of dialogue I had and I freaked. I had no idea I was that important. I hadn’t looked at the play at all. I hadn’t studied my lines and was totally unprepared.

I’m sure this dreams says loads about me. The most obvious interpretation could come from that fact that I didn’t start a news article that’s due today for a journalism class until 9:30 last night. While I’m pretty confident I’ll finish it during lunch, there’s that element of urgency that seems to be the only thing getting me going these days.

If I want to look deeper, I can interpret the dream as an indication of my readiness to accept life changes. Nathan and I have been talking about starting a family. It has taken me a long time to get to the point where I’m mentally prepared to accept the responsibilities of motherhood. I thought I was there, but lately I’ve been wondering how hard it will be to still do the things I do now when I have a child to take care of. Silly, I know. There’s no way I’ll be able to maintain my current lifestyle. I know that.

I’ve also been a little worried about my weight. It’s slowly creeping back up. That’s not really something one wants to happen before she gets pregnant, nor is it something one wants to happen right before the holiday eating season. Last year I was very much in control and actually lost weight between Thanksgiving and New Years. I guess this year my goal will be to maintain.

Thanksgiving is at my house this year. I’m making the turkey as well as a turkey breast. I’m trying out a new stuffing recipe, making a cheesecake, sweet potato casserole and homemade rolls. I also have a website for the Girl Scouts I have to work on and my final article and project for my journalism class. Yeah, I’ll be able to do all this when I have a baby.


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